Saturday, July 16, 2005

well...ExTrEmSaD...m i spellin it correctly?...well..yes...it is wat i intend 4... y do i like tiz name?...well i actually copied tiz name frm another user wen i was in irc many many yrs ago...to mi it is veri meaningful...i will feel sad often...wen i m alone at hm...on e bus...walkin 2 sch...hvin lunch...doin work...etc...i blame my lack of study tt i cant find a word 2 describe my feelin...dunnoe wen tiz feelin came 2 mi...until 2day tiz time i m still hvin e same feelin...always wanna pen down my feelin but always dunnoe where 2 start...is it e ppl or e environment...really wish 2 go 2 an isolated island wif no memories of anyting n start off my life again... dun wanna noe any1...i dun hv e courage 2 lose any frenz or adapt 2 new environment...e best is tt i dun hv knowledge of any of tiz thn i dun hv 2 tink bout em... time is not a word in my dictionary...sch is not part of my schedule...life is thn truely enjoyable...dun hv 2 style myself...no need 2 entertain any1...how i wish... y dun anyting go according 2 wat we wan??...life itself can be so taxin... ttz y i m always sad...nth can cheer me up...findin sumting tt will last eternal... but nth last...nt frenship...nt relation...nt life...nt happiness...who in tiz sad world can b happy?...who dosnt feel sad?...its so sad 2 c ppl deceivin themselves... 2 tink tt they r happy...2 tink tt they can hide themselves in other activities... many a time we seek comfort n company frm frenz...but they too nv last...how dumb can human b...2 tink tt they can find a substitute 4 sadness...love 2 listen 2 all e sentimental songs...well gt more feelin as i get older...m i agin??...y...y do time always bcum so merciless??... y dont time spare mi?...hope tt i can go 2 heaven now... findin eternal joy bside god...nth 2 worry...nth 2 tink bout... every ting tt tiz earth cant satisfy mi..i can get e satisfaction frm god...any1 who read tiz plz pray 4 mi...u dun need 2 b a christian 2 pray...god is e father of all n iz always listenin 2 every1...