Wednesday, October 04, 2006

So many things going on and time passing faster and faster. I suddenly feel that I miss alot of people. So many friends I have not seen for a long time and I long to meet them. The irony thing is that those that I don't want to see is appearing everywhere. They are doing things I hate and testing my tolerant.

I missed my primary school friends. They are the ones that I feel comfortable chatting with. We got so much to talk about and so many things to discuss. I feel so free when I am with them. I feel myself and no restrictions at all. Dianto my cca mate and one who enjoys playing the same sports as me. I enjoy spending the day just relaxing and just chatting with him and just talk over some games and people. But now, he is overseas doing his studies and we hardly chat. Choon poh who is such a open guy who is always willing to lend a helping hand and is so funny in his actions. I enjoy going swimming and playing badminton with him in the past. Or just going to some hawker and chat over a drink. We can crap and talk about anything under the sun. But now, he is in NS and is so difficult to meet him. Yun xiang used to be one of the closes friends I have. Remember the days we go to the arcade at Tiong and just play games or even to catch a movie. He is just like a bigger brother to me who is so experience in life. There is so many more that I miss and they are like so far away. Dianto, yew on, yun xiang, wei hao, choon poh and many more.

But there are those whom I hate as well. ***** whom I hate his attitude very much. One who just can't understand what it is meant to live in this society. But he just keep appearing and I just can't shake him off. Unfortunately, there are Christians I hate as well. Those who always justify their doings. They feel that they are never wrong and it is always others doings. They just take everything for granted. ******* is one case. I used to think I know him well but in fact I was wrong. I know so little about these so call righteous people. But the thing is, i feel less and less affected by his doing. What he does have little effect on me. I just couldn't be bothered. Just make sure we don't cross path again. I was foolish to believe there is sure thing as forever.

Now, I just hope to find someone who understand me and I can feel comfortable chatting with. Someone who is true and can relate to. Someone who treats me as true as the way I treat him/her. Is there such a thing as forever? Nothing last, Neither friends nor foes...