Monday, November 27, 2006

I don't know why but I have this burden in my heart. There is this certain person in that keeps ringing in me recently. It is the cause of the envy, hatred and jealousy in me.

We might not know each other for a long time but I feel that I have known you for a long time. We have a lot of things in common and we do share interest in many things. We are just so alike in many ways and sometimes from his attitude and temper, I can just see myself. The determination and the way we think. But I just do not know how to tell him that I appreciate him around. I miss the every moment that we once shared. I can just remember every single detail. I do not know how to express my gratitude. His every single liking is in my brain and I just can't cast it aside when I see those item. Like what he like and dislike is just so clear.

I can remember this incident that happen that I can never forget. Another friend told me that he seem very sad and lonely when I went off with another friend for lunch. Maybe is that he still do not know much friends but I felt so sad and wrong that I left him there. I smsed him and apologies. I made a promise that I will always keep him company when he is alone. He made alot of sacrifices when going out with me. Like eating and the places we go. But everything have changed.

He has grown and know more people and made better friends. Now he have his own clique and goes to places of their own. Sometimes I feel that I am not much of a good friend that I neglect one's feeling. I am not saying that he cannot have his own clique but is just that there is a 180 degree change that I just can't accept.

I just want to wish this friend all the best. Although I do not agree with what he does and it is not right, but I do not want to say anything. Even within my power but I do not want to interfere. Hope that our friendship will return to what it was although it is quite impossible. Well dreams are the engines that keeps us going. Sometimes I think if you enjoy Badminton as much, then you might understand me better and it will not turn out like this.