The Dark Dark Night

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Read my friend's blog and I am so envious of him. What would you think of living in many countries over your life? Is it sad to say goodbye to your friends? Or hello to a new world? Can you let go of the familiar environment and friends and go to a whole new place all alone?

I am really determine now to earn lots of money and travel to a whole new world. I am but a small peck of sand in this large undefined universe. But to be able to travel the wind and towards a new place and environment is a blessing that not many can enjoy. Many people will not be able to leave behind their friends and family much less to say going to a whole new environment. It is a sad scene and emotional time. Words alone can describe the loneliness and sorrow of separation.

If I have the money to do what I want, the first thing I will do is to travel the world to find a place my heart belong. To be able to go overseas and to other countries is such a fortunate thing. I really long to be able to go to a whole new environment and leave all the worries and trouble of this world behind. Maybe that is also the reason why I do camps. To be able to travel from place to place, meet new people and do new things.

Maybe the bad thing is that you don't have close friends to share a listening ear. But I don't worry about that. Sometimes I rather keep everything to myself than to expose my weakness to others and be attacked by them. It is sad, but that is the life I chose. Often than not, I find that I have no one to turn to when I have a problem. But going through so many things, I have learn to rely on myself. Turning back to God is maybe my answer to all my problems.

God is the only one that can deliver me from all these problems and bring me to a faraway place. A place with no sorrow, pain or suffering. Friends in God is better than friends in this world.

zihao blogged at 10/25/2009 03:14:00 PM

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