Tuesday, May 31, 2005

feelin weird 2day...dunnnoe y...sumtimes i feel tt hvin a relation iz gd...at least dere iz sum1 dere wen u need it...sum1 2 talk 2...sum1 2 rest ur head on...sum1 tt will go out wif u...sum1 who comfortz u...sum1 2 hug...sum1 2 kiss...sum1 2 share everyting wif...dunnoe y ppl can find a galfren so easily...juz wifin 3 mth can find a galfren n ther dun even noe each other at e 1st place...love at 1st sight??...sumtiing matthew said made lotz of sense... everyting iz bout relation... i m nt tt bad lookin...at least many ppl say i look nt bad wat... so y???...iz my expectation too high??...but isnt it normal 2 hv an aim??...but i dun wanna get into a relation tt iz nt secure...2 3 mth later thn say no feelin n break up...puppy love iz nt wat i m lookin 4...nv b desperate bout tiz kind of tingz...anyway i m still young...i like 2 belive tt everyting happen 4 a purpose...n e reason 4 nt able 2 get a gal fren might b bcuz i m 2 find a better 1 later...but sumtimes really envy those guys who iz wif a gal bside him...e guy may nt b tt gd lookin but he iz e most fortunate guy cuz he gt tt sum1 bside him...but we will hv 2 sacrifice sumting 4 tt relationship...frens..studies..games..slp..leisure..family..etc...i dun really noe relation cuz i nv been through 1...but wif sum1 like u-noe-who...i do nt wanna get into a relation...anyway...love iz 4 e beholder...if u feel rite juz go 4 it...dun bother bout wat other sayz...at least u gt sum1 2 go out wif durin tiz holiday...unlike mi...dunnoe where 2 go...who 2 go wif...n best of all i m ku zhong zuo le...cuz i still hv 2 go 2 sch 4 2 week...n mdm aisha still hven sent mi e schedule 4 e public lecture!!!...nw in jc every teacher seemz 2 b bias...dunnoe y...they pay more attention 2 their own klass thn other ppl...how puzzlin...shdnt teacher treat every students e same???...haiz...how complex relation iz...really need sum1 2 comfort mi...



Sunday, May 29, 2005

2day so happy...need nt worry bout hvin 2 wake up early 2 go 2 sch...but still gt holiday lesson lar...anyway wanna say sumting...saw tiz trend in church...any1 in evangel n noe who meng hui iz can go n look out 4 it...whenever stephanie iz around meng hui...he will be veri cheerful...but when stephanie iz nt around...he will look moody...dunnoe y...tink if u r a fren of tiz 2 u will notice tiz trend...anyway hv fun wif playin e both of em...dunnoe if i cause anyting b/w e 2 of em...sorry if i did do anyting offensive...but meng hui...if u gt anyting can cum chat wif mi lar... no need 2 keep everyting 2 urself...i may nt give any gd comment but i can b a gd listener...tiz goes out 2 every1...either sch work relation or any other ting... but i will b a even better listener durin tiz few weekz cause itz HOLIDAY...2day enjoyed myself alot...cum 2 tink of it... GOD iz really great...HE help in every possible way... 4 example wen meng hui do nt hv e money 4 church camp...god provide many ppl 2 help him financially...4 those who dunnoe god will tink tt all tiz iz crap but nt really... i like someting tt pastor onces told mi...if u juz listen 2 how gd n nice e cake iz n nt try it...u will nt noe if u like it or if it suitz ur taste...



Saturday, May 28, 2005

mi n joshua 

wow...free liao...holiday officially starts...2day enjoy myself alot...player soccer wif churchmate but e awful ting iz tt e field iz veri muddy n smelly... feel like throwin out...thn after tt went wif my churchmate 2 go n eat dinner at BK...thn my Joshua bought tiz kid's meal tt cum wif tiz toy cubacca frm starwarz if i spell it rite...thn we put it on stephanie's bag n she gt a shock.. it iz so funny...2molo we plan 2 bring it 2 church n play wif it...haha...so funny juz tinkin of it...after tt Joshua n i decided 2 go play arcade n e rest juz followed...we gt a fun time dere...i paid most of e money cause i dun wan Joshua 2 spend so much money everytime...hv 2 teach him how 2 save up...n i also hope 2 teach him 2 work hard n do well in studies...feel tt it iz a waste 4 him cause he reminded mi of my past... nt wantin 2 study but bcuz of some trivial incident..i felt tt i must really study... 1st waz my p6 teacher...she scolded mi alot n i waz a deliquent back thn... i thn started 2 work hard but time iz nt on my side so i went 2 normal academic durin sec dayz... thn it waz sec 2 wen i decided 2 study cause i did so badly in sec 2 tt i nearly didnt get my edusave bursary...thn i work hard n i scored top 5% in sec 3 n 4...n durin sec 5... i thought tt i did so well in N lvl so i slack thn i gt onli next 10% 4 sec 5... thn it motivated mi 2 do well 4 my O lvl...n here i m... i hope 2 b a gd example 2 every1...nt 4 my bad pt but 4 e gd pt...anyway wanna enjoy tiz holiday 2 itz fullest despite needin 2 go back 2 sch durin tiz holiday...



Wednesday, May 25, 2005

2day suddenly wanna share about wat i feel bout frenz...well...frenz cum n go n nt many stay 4 long... how many of ur frenz u noe 4 10 yrs or even more still gt close contact wif u??... how many do u go out wif often??...do u noe ur frenz likin??... how close r u really??...wat iz a true fren??...how do u judge a true fren??... how many best fren can 1 hv??...if u gt many best frenz...who iz e best of em all??... thn how can e rest b best fren??... 1 will alwayz b better thn e other... if u face problems who u look 4 1st??... does he look 4 u wen he gt problem??... fren iz actually a complex ting... no 1 can understand it... whenever u change sch u will noe different ppl...thn some1 else bcum u best fren... u will hang out more often wif him n less time wif ur old fren... we all noe tt no 1 can actually multi-task.. so how can we hv multiple frenship n keep em close at e same time??... ppl will change n so will e environment... no 1 will stay stagnant... we onli hv 24 hrs per day... minus slp n study hope long do we hv 2 keep in contact wif ur frenz... do we hv enough time 2 sustain every frenship??... how bout wen u gt a galfren??... wat will happen??... do u thn hv time 4 even any1 of ur frenz??... u will surely spent watever time u hv wif ur galfren...how bout wen u feel tt some1 iz ur best fren but he tink otherwise??...many ppl like 2 make frenz but always nv maintain each frenship...ttz y i dun tink hvin so many frenz iz a gd ting...2 hv a real true fren iz enough...but it iz nt tt easy 2 find tt some1...many ppl take a life tme 2 find tt true fren... ttz y i like 2 watch e sing show '15' by a sing director... dere iz tiz guy who said sumting tt makes a lot of sense...'no enemy last,neither do frenz'... it iz actually veri true...any1 wanna watch tiz bout 25 min show call mi... i also gt tiz after sch vcd which states wat student do after sch...it show wat happen 2 kids who gt bad company.... frenz iz impt 2 1 in life but it iz nt tt simple 2 find 1...2 bleed wif him n 2 cry wif him iz nt tt easy...i m inspired by an incident tt happen on mon tt lead 2 tiz expression of words...2 summarize it... i spent $179 on a gift 4 a fren tt i noe onli 4 bout 4 mthz...n we do nt chat tt often...i still dunnoe y i bought him e shoe...god really hv hiz way of doin tingz... any1 out dere can help mi ans tiz qnz??...



Monday, May 23, 2005

wow...2day is really 1 day which i spend e most amt of money...at 1st was actually wantin 2 get a present 4 tt fren of mine---meng hui... but dunnoe wat 2 get him... went 2 tiong 2 search but nth suits him...thn went 2 tampines 2 search 4 gift but also nth nice dere... whole day tinkin wat 2 buy...n after badminton game wif my churchmate we went 2 eat...after tt we went 2 c gt wat present 2 get 4 him...dunnoe wat gt into mi 2 get him a $179 shoe... but actually e design is nt bad... will look better on mi..hehe...anyway... e pt iz tt i nv buy such expensive gift 4 any1 b4... nt even my best fren...or any of my frenz 4 tt matter...it is nt mi 2 buy gift 4 any1 moreover such expensive gift...e strangest part iz tt i dun feel regretful at all...wow...DON ANG MENG HUI if u gt read tiz u must really feel honoured man... tink dere will nt b another person tt i m willin 2 buy such an expensive gift to... nt even those tt i noe 4 a long time...dunnoe wat cum over mi man...so scary...it is really nt mi tt will do tiz kind of ting...mayb is GOD who is tryin 2 say sumting 2 mi...but i dunnoe...man tiz iz a really scary day....worse part is tt it is nt like mi 2 do tiz kind of ting n i onli noe him like 4mth??...really scary...

2day can enjoy 1 more day of relaxin...so happy... but still gt so many tings 2 do... my PI final draft...my econ long overdue work...my geo hw...etc...dun like sch man...is it onli mi or is dere any1 else like mi...but nvm... 2day playin badminton wif churchmate... dunnoe y i wake up so early...hope tt june holiday can cum soon... haiz...yesterday wei seng chio mi 2 go fly kite but i 4get 2 ask about e detail... so dumb of mi...nw must also try 2 change e grp of frens i usually hang out wif... so can noe more ppl in church... really hope t i can bring some1 2 church...dunnoe who to ask.... anyway must share bout my relationship wif god... wif him around...i gt 2 noe who i really m...i gt 2 c my full potential...also god help mi in many ways tt i can nv achieve by my own...4 example my o lvl eng result... if u wanna noe more...buy me a cup of coffee n we can sit down n talk...also i gt 2 noe more frens through church... ton..chun seng.. baoli..baoru..yi reng..alvin..meng hui..joshua..ernest..wei seng..etc...sorri if i 4get any1... tell mi if i miss u out n i can get u a cup of coffee...look 4ward 2 goin out wif my frens n eat lunch 2gether or 2 go beach 2gether...or if can go on a holiday 2gether...but nt during church camp cause i always gt sumting on during e period...dunnoe y...mayb is god's will...but i really hope 2 go 4 it... every1 seems 2 enjoy it....



Saturday, May 14, 2005

tiz week has been a busy 1.... have been playin sports all e way... lackin in a lot of rest..... 2day played soccer in church.... didnt really gt into e field but ok lor... dun really look 4ward 2 gettin in... wat i love e most is still playin badminton.... on e bench wif mi was meng hui n joshua... actually meng hui iz a nice guy... but 2 bad he iz in e sch which i love so much previosly but hated it now.... mayb is bcuz of e badminton team there... e players look too proud n e galz tt wear pants freak mi out alot...now at hm makes mi feel tt i still gt alot of hm work 2 do... haiz... really hope 4 a long long weekend...y...y...i cant go 2 church camp.... all bcuz of sch...hate it sooo much... really hope tt it will b A lvl soon... can b free again...HOLIDAY....miss u soooo.....



Wednesday, May 11, 2005

now in sch doin tiz blog... soo bored and so tired.... have been playing badminton for more thn a week liao... my body dunnoe can take it or nt... nv play till so siong b4.... now my sch in 2nd round.... so suprise tt pj nv got in... also feel so happy 4 em tt they cannot go in... hope tiz fri dun lose tooo badly.... at least gt a no. 8 can liao.... gt a new bag too... like it so much....



Monday, May 02, 2005

haiz...now schlin cant do anyting else.... cant go 2 church camp... cant go out wif frens.... cant go 2 e beach.... cant play games..... cant slp late.... cant slack.... cant dye my hair.... totally cant do anyting fun.... dun noe how long i can take it?.... but at least still can cope wif studies.... really hope 4 a long holiday... gonna train up 4 napfa liao...or else when go into army must do longer period.... i noe tt god will give me e determination 2 do all tiz tings... now hv 2 do my geo assignments... really wanna go 2 e beach wif my frens... wat m i 2 do?.... 11/2 more yrs...juz 11/2 more yrs 2 suffer....