Sunday, June 05, 2005

feelin weird nw..hv tiz strange urge 2 go out n chat wif meng hui,trina n stephanie again like tt time after amazing east...it is really enjoyable...miss e gd old dayz...dun feel like growin up...wanna b a kid 4ever...y do we hv 2 grow up?... isnt it better 2 b a kid 4ever?...need nt worry bout anyting...can hv long frenship... need nt worry bout studies...can go 2 fren's house everyday...holiday time onli need 2 tink of where 2 go n play...n need nt worry bout goin back 2 sch 4 lesson...nw i can onli c all my frenz go 4 camp but i cant go...how i wish i can leave tiz sch...how i wish tt A lvl iz tiz yr...end tiz torment...how i wish tt i can cum 2 noe GOD earlier...thn i can hv real frenz n will nt hv wasted 17 precious yrs of my life... onli now hv i fully live my life...wif a purpose in life...how i wish i can go 4 e church camp...but i still hv 2 b responsible 2 my sch work...frenz plz help mi enjoy every moment of e trip...how i wish i can end tiz 1 1/2 yrz of torture...how i wish i can hv a carefree chat wif my frenz frm night till day n till e night again... promise tt i will save up 2 book a chalet end of e yr n all of us can go n relax n enjoy a time of fellowship 2gether n chat every night n day...tiz iz a vow i will make in e name of Jesus Christ...GOD plz help mi...give mi e determination...nw i m searchin n hopin 2 find sum true frenz in life...GOD bless... ive found a few... MENG HUI-->sum1 i m willin 2 spend big bucks on 4 juz a present which i STILL hv nt regretted buyin...JOSHUA-->sum1 whom i feel i can connect wif in church...MATTHEW--> sum1 who will brighten up my day juz by lookin at him...TRINA-->a gd spiritual leader who hv great faith...STEPHANIE-->sum1 whom i noe 4 12 yrz...thank u lord...but too bad they r nt within reach wen i needed sum1 2 talk 2 n go out wif... ttz 1 of e reason i wanna write a blog...so tt sum1 will stumble on my deepest feelin...