Friday, July 29, 2005

Day 1:well...2day veri reluctant 2 go OBS 1...nv go 4 camp 4 so long thn now suddenly hv 2 go 4 a 5 day camp..also miss my fren alot...miss chattin wif em...thn e ppl in my watch also nt veri close 2 em all...we were in cheng ho..tink ppl will noe who he iz...thn we went 4 some games n learn a bit of rock belayin...learnt it b4 so quite easy 2 mi...thn went 2 pitch our tent n hv our dinner thn went 2 slp...
Day 2:super cold in e mornin cuz it rained...mix quite well wif my tentmate cuz e nite b4 we hv a gd chat..noe tt they r yongqing n wenyi...2day went 4 kayakin..at 1st dun tink iz a prob cuz i learnt it in scout last time but i was wrong...e ride was 3hr+4 n i was e power guy...really tire after it...by 2day e whole team gt 2gether quite well liao...wen i m busy wif sumting is ok but wen i m free i will tink of my frenz...especially menghui...
Day 3:cold cold so cold...2day we went 2 e hdb quarry 2 build a raft...hv nt done tiz 4 a long time...it really needs alot of teamwork...but onli 3 ppl in e watch noes knots so it is a bit tought...mi iz e 1 tt noes more bout e knots(thz 2 scout) so i hv 2 run around e raft 2 tie all e knots...tirin...but sum ppl dun like 2 work in grp n wanna tie e barrel in their own way n cuz e raft 2 break apart...i cant b bothered...they juz simply dun listen...so we hv 2 make do wif swimmin...after tt we rested n we gt ready 4 trekin...again sumting i hv nt done in ages..they r all nt used 2 it so we travel veri slow...thn we reach camp 1...bath n had our dinner... superb food cuz iz cook by real cook...had 3 servings...
Day 4:had our breakfast n we went 4 flying fox..veri fun...hope 4 it 4 a long time.. thn we went 4 lunch but it was nt as delicious...thn we went 4 rock climbin...dun really look 4ward 2 it...i onli climb 4 or 5 time b4 onli...need a lot of energy which i m lackin...but nvm i still tried n i make it 2 e top...i was so tire after e whole ting cuz i hv 2 belay n b anchor n climb continueously...cuz e rest r all veri tire...after tt we get ready n start 2 trek back 2 camp 2...we gt dere by 7... e 1st time we r on time 4 sumting...wen we reach our camp site...every 1 wasnt happy wif it...mayb bcuz i hv experience b4 i dun feel a ting..so they did sumting stupid..
Day 5:woke up veri early n pack our store...washed everyting n we found out tt we lost quite a lot of tings so we went 2 'SEARCH' 4 em...end up we gt everyting... made many new frens in tiz camp...also gt more chatin time wif elton...
Conclusion:well e experience iz ok but saw a fact...ppl nowadays r too pampered...a bit of problem also cannt face...always demandin 4 better tings...wat if they hv 2 face sumting like tt on their own...dun tink they can handle it...wen e goin gets tought...e tought gets goin...mayb is bcuz i was once a scout n so i m used 2 tiz type of life...miss e gd old days..gt time i will gt 4 scout again n get a cert 4 it... it is wat i m...anyway..i feel tt if we cant b a leader thn b a gd follower... dun try 2 act smart n do tings on ur own...



Saturday, July 23, 2005

2day went 2 buy stuff 4 obs camp...thn realise tt my fren all like nv go camp b4 1... so sian...thought can go wif ppl gt experience thn can relax...after tt went 4 outreach... too bad it rained n nt many ppl dere...thn after tt is officially zihao day... hehe..actually iz my fren they all keep mi company 4 e last 2nd time b4 i go 2 obs... dun really like camp...my last camp was in pri sch..thn summore gt no contact wif my frenz...so sad...ExTrEmSaD...anyway... 2day went 2 quite a few places...shd b happy but every1 say tt i look sad, troubled...i really dunnoe...by theory i shd b happy n enjoyin myself but i dun tink i enjoyed myself tt much... i m troubled by sumting i cant really tell wat...n it is in my mind e whole nite...wanna get drunk n 4get bout everytink...my house now hv no beer or any alcohol or else i will finish it up...dunnoe y i so sad...tts y i cant say away frm my ExTrEmSaD... haiz... really hope tt time will juz stop n we can all sit down n chat n no need 2 go home... y is my dream so difficult 2 cum true...life is so strange...dunnoe y i kept feelin sad 2day... is it tt i m goin 2 miss my frenz...actually i really miss em... always hope 2 c em every weekend...especially meng hui n joshua...dunnoe y i m so close wif em... i m goin 2 write a poem 4 e both of em...at least tt is e best i can give em...although i keep sayin tt i m fine but i actually m nt...keep on listenin 2 2 song...peng you n dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui...feel like cryin but i dare nt cry in e public...y...y m i so sad always...cant get out of tiz problem...m i sentimental?...dun really noe...2molo will b a new day... juz dun wanna be sad 2molo... my last day wif my frenz...really will miss u all...pray 4 mi frenz... n sorry 2 those i did nt spent time wif... will try my best 2 give every1 time...so sad...ExTrEmSaD....



Sunday, July 17, 2005

enjoyed 2day veri much...in e morning was a veri powerful sermon by pastor dale... really touch mi...its bout vision...really felt god's presence...acknowledged vision.. accompanied vision..100% commitment...thn e eng session was also e same... but it build up my understandin of e sermon...truely awesome..thn after tt we stayed back 2 do our region event trailer...fun...thn we went 2 hv lunch...after tt... trina meng hui n i went out 2gether 2 fellowship...we went 2 e touhua stall near douby ghout...thn we started 2 chat bout e appollo landin tt was fake...n e natural disaster tt is happenin...relate it 2 geo...plate tectonic..continental drift theory...haha...thn we gt into lit...both chi n eng...thn meng hui gt tiz book of poems thn i tried 2 translate e eng into chi...n meng hui is tryin 2 translate e chi into eng...oh 4get 2 say e chi 1 is my creation...thn e work tt came out is posted below...too bad time flies...happy time nv last...really really enjoyed e day so much... dunnoe since wen hv i enjoyed so well...christians can b real gd company... especially wif meng hui around...wat a gd time we had...4 onces he is not lame...if he is a gal i will sure woo her one lor...too bad his nt...found 1 gd activity tt we can do 2gether liao...haha...n we gt so engross tt we 4get 2 eat our dinner...so funny... lookin 4ward 4 e next fellowship...

友情与爱情

爱、友 双者从不合
有爱无友，有友无爱
有如太极分明了
一点不容滴两地
矛盾，不了，却无助
舍一不可，留两不得
风沙不起，眼泪直流
真情难找，好友难寻
为何事实不容俩者合？
为何世人不寻梦？
失友，失恋，接连来
伤心，无助，无人问
两勒插刀，情义绵绵，不留在
只留心伤一人日月风雨
泪洗面。。。。。

Could love and friends be together
No, they have never conciled ever
They have been ever distinct
Never have they been one thing
Oh, such struggle
Leave one not and keep not the other
My eyes is thus filled with tears
Neither love nor friend is easy, i fear
Why can't both be together?
Will it only be a dream forever?
Losing either will cause agony
Yet i find no help to such misery
Both thus shall not exist
Leaving me thus to weep in this mist...



Saturday, July 16, 2005

well...ExTrEmSaD...m i spellin it correctly?...well..yes...it is wat i intend 4... y do i like tiz name?...well i actually copied tiz name frm another user wen i was in irc many many yrs ago...to mi it is veri meaningful...i will feel sad often...wen i m alone at hm...on e bus...walkin 2 sch...hvin lunch...doin work...etc...i blame my lack of study tt i cant find a word 2 describe my feelin...dunnoe wen tiz feelin came 2 mi...until 2day tiz time i m still hvin e same feelin...always wanna pen down my feelin but always dunnoe where 2 start...is it e ppl or e environment...really wish 2 go 2 an isolated island wif no memories of anyting n start off my life again... dun wanna noe any1...i dun hv e courage 2 lose any frenz or adapt 2 new environment...e best is tt i dun hv knowledge of any of tiz thn i dun hv 2 tink bout em... time is not a word in my dictionary...sch is not part of my schedule...life is thn truely enjoyable...dun hv 2 style myself...no need 2 entertain any1...how i wish... y dun anyting go according 2 wat we wan??...life itself can be so taxin... ttz y i m always sad...nth can cheer me up...findin sumting tt will last eternal... but nth last...nt frenship...nt relation...nt life...nt happiness...who in tiz sad world can b happy?...who dosnt feel sad?...its so sad 2 c ppl deceivin themselves... 2 tink tt they r happy...2 tink tt they can hide themselves in other activities... many a time we seek comfort n company frm frenz...but they too nv last...how dumb can human b...2 tink tt they can find a substitute 4 sadness...love 2 listen 2 all e sentimental songs...well gt more feelin as i get older...m i agin??...y...y do time always bcum so merciless??... y dont time spare mi?...hope tt i can go 2 heaven now... findin eternal joy bside god...nth 2 worry...nth 2 tink bout... every ting tt tiz earth cant satisfy mi..i can get e satisfaction frm god...any1 who read tiz plz pray 4 mi...u dun need 2 b a christian 2 pray...god is e father of all n iz always listenin 2 every1...



Saturday, July 09, 2005

finally...create ended...long weeks of practice..so many times per week...ended yesterday... but too bad we didnt won anyting...but it was a nice experience...n i nv noe i can look so gd in formal clothes...haha...looked really sinister...total bad guy...nice image...n it ended...next is our region event...dunnoe wat m i goin 2 do?...best is a simple job...n gone through e test paper...fail chi...nv thought i will fail it...but nv mind...cuz i noe tt it iz juz a small fraction of e 30% nt wat i heard b4 tt iz e whole 30%...but must work hard liao...cant slack...any1 wanna study 4 A math?...can ask mi along...mi wanna start studyin liao...cant fail... must get a A lvl pass 4 all e subjects...dun wanna retain...n also must study 4 all e subjects also...any1 wanna study plz ask mi along...must work double thn can promote... thn end tiz 2 yr...i must also change my hp liao...it is gettin old n faulty...wanna get a nokia n90...n also save up money 2 go enjoy during e dec holiday... really hope 4 a long long weekend so i can go sit by e beach or at any relaxin place n juz chat wif my frenz...nowadays really hope 4 holidays...dunnoe y... n must really build up...train up 4 aug 2 cum...oh almost 4gt...end of tiz mth goin obs...dunnoe wat i will b experiencin but hope 4 a fun 1...actually dun really wanna go...it iz so ex...summore it is wif e sch...rules rules n more rules.... sianz...now tinkin of wat 2 do 2molo...



Sunday, July 03, 2005

tiz will b in chi cuz it best describe how i feel
朋友对我来说是神的礼物。耶稣给于我们不让我们感到寂寞的。所以我很珍惜我身旁的人。对我而言，不管对对方说了什么，做了什么，到最后我们还是朋友。我不喜欢称任何人为好朋友因为好朋友这三个子是留给真正的朋友。到目前为止，我还没找到适当的人选。“世上没有永远的敌人或朋友”。我很赞同这句话因为朋友不是永恒的。不知到在神的永恒国度中能不能找到永远的朋友？每天回到家就要面对四面墙埋头在电脑中。天复以天，感情也麻木了。不喜欢笑，不喜欢多人，不喜欢被约束，更不喜欢表达我的感情。很想能有一个能聊心的朋友但我却从来不相信人。人如果
可信，就不会有人心难测这四个子了。我不会表达我自己，有时我会讥讽我周围的人，可是我是出于好意的。因为我们的感情好，我才会和你开玩笑。不然我理也不会理你。因为打架能促进感情，我才会每次很你打打闹闹。我会为朋友赴汤蹈火但往往被人利用。所以我不会太过用心。我想信认识我的人都可以为我作证。如果我的朋友有什么问题，在我能力范围内的，我都会尽心尽力的帮。我也会牺牲自己。当人靠不著时，我们可以靠神。人已经让我放弃了你们。人心是丑的。

haiz...2day wasted a veri gd day...2day nv go out or anyting...so sian...nth 2 do... cant enjoy anymore...2molo hv 2 practice drama...n no time 2 go out...thn 2 day all nt free 1...sianz...thn sch reopen gonna b a sad ting...work work n more work... sianz... study study...stupid...dun wanna study anymore...wanna go play everyday... stupid man...y must we study...really hope tt judgement will cum 2molo...can go 2 heaven n enjoy peace n everyting...dun wanna stay here anymore...nth here makes mi miss it...nth here makes mi wanna stay...really wanna get out...so sian...nth here is fun... study sux sch sux teacher sux environment sux...nth is fun... boring... hope tt can go out everyday...play pool chat watch movie...now at home really veri boring...any1 wanna ask mi out 2 hv a drink or any ting?...hope 4 a nice mug of beer... thn listen 2 music n c ppl passin on e street...every ting goes slow... tiz is e life man...but now...haiz...no 1 wanna go out...plz any1 wanna go out now?... call or sms mi n ask mi out lei...so sian...really wanna go out...dun wanna waste e day....

2day really enjoy myself...nt again??...haha..but tiz time really...so fun...played badminton 4 kings n queens...KING ZIHAO...haha...nt showin off...e competition is really tough...wanna 2 play squash also but nv go dere in e end...oh...our region is king 4 badminton table tennis squash n basketball...really amazing...hope tt e next 1 will b cumin soon...i dun tink tt we shd b proud bout it...cause all our talent is given by god...it is bcuz of him...also saw many promising badminton player in our church...great...Singapore gt new hope...after e event went out 2 eat at bugis...thn gt tiz promo 4 california gym...thn we juz went in 2 check bout e detail cuz its free anyway...matthew trina meng hui n i sign up 4 a free 14 day trial...so stupid... i noe i surely wont go 1 lor... no time + no partner...thn we went 2 hv mos burger...thn we plan 2 go sent si hui off.. she is goin overseas 2 study... brought my gd fren meng hui along... intro em...thn we meet sihui n clara at sakae at changi...they r wif their boy fren... n wen intro meng hui 2 em... he say tt i m hiz boyfren...instead of trina...miss e dayz of gayyin wif guanbing at parkway mph... time flies...now hv 2 gay around wif meng hui...veri nice guy...but 2 serious at times...mayb is bcuz too much studies...2day tink he receive another wounderful gift frm...bcuz i bring him dere...he gt a farewell hug frm sihui...man do he look shock...haha..thn he hv 2 go all e way back 2 cck...poor him...again...thn gt e bond wif tony better...also wif meng hui...tt 1 noe need 2 say 1... cuz we r too close liao...2molo must also enjoy e day...



Saturday, July 02, 2005

wooohhh...2day really enjoy man...nv had i enjoy so well b4...actually nt a veri big ting...2day is a normal sch day 2 all...but 2 mi...haha...went 2 sp 2 play badminton...haha...jelous...no need 2 go sch study leh... tell u lar...tiz week is our exam week...every1 hv their block test...but 2day no test 4 mi...no need 2 go 2 sch.. but sch still gt youth day celebration...mi nv go...bad zihao...who care... go back 4 1hr no way...i m nt a bad guy but i also nt a gd 1 either...fun lor play badminton summore no need 2 pay...really broke...no money liao...mh burn a hole in my pocket...cant wait 4 2molo...kings n queens...less thn 24 hr...summore 2nite create our region did quite well lor... 1st 4 grp vocal n in foam art...thn e singin was all veri gd...but i scare tt i let e whole drama team down... i really nt gd at actin tiz role...summore i dunnoe how 2 scream pain...thz 2 so much aikido i can let out all e pain in juz 1 breathe...but 2 whole day iz destroyed by a stupid ting... went 2 hv dinner wif baoli baoru christopher weihong they all...go a chicken chop n bcuz i gt no small change... i give him $10 note...e uncledid nt hv change 4 mi n he went 2 change...but he nv return...so i went 2 get back my money...he give mi back 6 bucks...he thn return 2 our table n say tt he did give mi e 6 bucks...wat e the heck... dun i hv e money??..$6 onli...i wont return 2 tt stall liao...wat a dumb ting... dun care liao.. 2molo also must enjoy...jing zao you jiu jing zao jui...