Saturday, July 23, 2005

2day went 2 buy stuff 4 obs camp...thn realise tt my fren all like nv go camp b4 1... so sian...thought can go wif ppl gt experience thn can relax...after tt went 4 outreach... too bad it rained n nt many ppl dere...thn after tt is officially zihao day... hehe..actually iz my fren they all keep mi company 4 e last 2nd time b4 i go 2 obs... dun really like camp...my last camp was in pri sch..thn summore gt no contact wif my frenz...so sad...ExTrEmSaD...anyway... 2day went 2 quite a few places...shd b happy but every1 say tt i look sad, troubled...i really dunnoe...by theory i shd b happy n enjoyin myself but i dun tink i enjoyed myself tt much... i m troubled by sumting i cant really tell wat...n it is in my mind e whole nite...wanna get drunk n 4get bout everytink...my house now hv no beer or any alcohol or else i will finish it up...dunnoe y i so sad...tts y i cant say away frm my ExTrEmSaD... haiz... really hope tt time will juz stop n we can all sit down n chat n no need 2 go home... y is my dream so difficult 2 cum true...life is so strange...dunnoe y i kept feelin sad 2day... is it tt i m goin 2 miss my frenz...actually i really miss em... always hope 2 c em every weekend...especially meng hui n joshua...dunnoe y i m so close wif em... i m goin 2 write a poem 4 e both of em...at least tt is e best i can give em...although i keep sayin tt i m fine but i actually m nt...keep on listenin 2 2 song...peng you n dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui...feel like cryin but i dare nt cry in e public...y...y m i so sad always...cant get out of tiz problem...m i sentimental?...dun really noe...2molo will b a new day... juz dun wanna be sad 2molo... my last day wif my frenz...really will miss u all...pray 4 mi frenz... n sorry 2 those i did nt spent time wif... will try my best 2 give every1 time...so sad...ExTrEmSaD....