Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Want to start off by asking one question. Will there ever be someone so evil that even hell has no place for him?

I was emotionally unstable this past few weeks and can't seem to find the answer. But this two days, I was sort of awaken from this dream. I finally understood a lot of things I never thought I would. Really thanks to Meng Hui for helping me to seek the truth on some issues. You are really my light in the dark.

I think I would be in a mood swing this few days. I still need to choose my path from now on. Although things are now clearer but I still have some decisions to make. Things to choose and to give up and some important decisions to make that will impact the rest of my life. Will be in an isolation until I have go through this second stage.

Our life should be like the rubber band. Learning to be flexible and to absorb the impact and bounce any attacks back. To give and take and to give unto others what you hope to receive from them. Never be too stubborn and dwell into things that is beyond ourselves.

In cell group today, I sort of understood a logic. No one likes scolding. It is just so simple but sometimes we just forgot about this truth. I can't help but pity JH that he received so much lecturing. I want to save him but I am in no position to interfere. I understand his situation and not wanting to come at all. I am in his situation and I know what he is thinking and feelings. I really hope that I can use my life to change his thinking and to change his mindset on following Christ.

I thank Jennifer for guiding me and helping me through. She helped to build up my foundation in the Lord and today I can still seek His help. I dare not say I am spiritually strong or that I am a good christian because I did not achieve all this on my own. I did not solve the problems on my own. With good friends like Jennifer and Meng Hui, I got the help I need.

I did not go church because of my friends. I do not need to seek for activities after church. Knowing the one sitting beside me doesn't help in growing in God. I don't mind not knowing anyone from church. In fact I prefer to stay on low profile. I am not one who love the limelight and socializing. I can still find activity partners from my other friends. But something Aik hong says still make a lot of sense. Do not yoke with unbelievers. If God give me friends to stay, they will. If God never take away friends in my life, I will treasure them always.

At the end of the day, I will always treasure those who went through thick and thin with me. I will do anything for my friends who need me. I never like this thing about overly concern. If you are a true friend, you will know that I will do the same. I hate excuses like it is too late or that it is inconvenient. I would expect nothing less from my friends and so I expect my friends to treat me the same. I offer my friendship without any holding back and I hope whoever give his/hers will also do the same.

Anyway, this is off the topic. In summary, I have found my path that I should be taking and will be working toward it. But at now, I still still focus on my studies and forgive me if I give anyone attitudes. I am just having a mood swing and seeking what to do. Searching the right attitude and the light. Send me a message to give me your support if you really mean it.