Friday, October 19, 2007

The million dollar question is partially answered. Baffled by this question, I wasn't able to concentrate on what I am doing. Everything I have planned have been delayed due to it. But now, I think things will go a little better.

The answer that I have been searching for in Luke is the word "faith". It is as simple as that. Nothing more, nothing less.

The faith to believe in miracles. The faith to believe in the impossible. The faith to attain the unattainable. The faith to believe in the unbelievable. Most importantly, the faith in the intangible. This may all sound easy, but trust me it is the most difficult task there is to be fulfilled.

To tell the truth, I am lacking in faith. There are just so many trials and temptations that I am facing that I don't think I have the energy to overcome all of them. I am just too weak and dishearten to continue. The last ounce of strength in me I have already used it up. The strength I am drawing from now is one that I am tired of drawing anymore. The support I need is no able to sustain me through. The care I need is just so delusional that I don't think it exist.

Every wondered why people who know Christ chose to give up this blessing? Actually it is very simple. When they think they gain more from the worldly, they will choose to stay in it. To be frank, Christian friendship can be very fragile. Although I am not a Christian for very long, but I have seen many cases of such. People leaving church because they have an unsettled dispute between someone from church and people hating God because of what their Christian friends did to them.

I can't say I don't empathize them but I don't agree with them totally. If there are no friends in Church you can talk to, there are Christians from other Churches that you can still connect with. The important thing is to have faith that tomorrow will be better. In my school alone, I have known Christians from so many Churches and they are all good friends I can rely on when I needed help. When I can't find what I desire from my Church-mates, they are there to keep me going.

So, there is no point to give up something because of something we don't see. We have to put our sight further than what is before our eyes. There is always a sunrise after every sunset. A true friendship will last the toll of time but a fake friendship will melt before the fire. Have faith that you will find a true friendship when the time is right.

But nonetheless, there is still something in the book of Luke that I still can't decipher. Or more of the name Luke that I can't seem to understand. It is more that just the book that God wants to tell me, that I am sure. But what about Luke is it that God is trying to tell me? Or is it the person that God is trying to speak to me about? What is it that I have to know?