Thursday, December 27, 2007

Today's interview was not the usual type that you would have guessed. It was somewhat unique yet normal to the industry in a way.

I don't know why but I got the chance to choose from two different group. One is flexible timing and good pay. 12 dollars per hour and almost all assignments are half a day. The other is 3d2n and the pay per assignment is 12o dollars.

I don't know which to choose. One offers good pay and the other offers good fun. Both is what I want. But I have to give up fun for money or to money for fun. It is really a great dilemma. Whats worse is that I have to make the decision by tomorrow morning.

Please anyone who is reading this, please give me some advice.



Wednesday, December 26, 2007

I am very confuse about myself.

I am not really into very active things and quite a soloist, but I keep getting into jobs that is very adventurous and sporty.

If you ask me, getting into a crowd and entertain people is the last thing I will do. Whats more to motivate people and coax someone. The worse part is to get all high and enthu and lead people to do things.

But I got myself into jobs that need me to do all of these things. The current job that I am in require me to teach kids. To be frank, I get irritated by them very often and I nearly wanted to kill them. But at least there is a few kids that can make my blood pressure go down.

Now I am shortlisted in another job that require me to do the same things. I hope that I am able to get this job. It has something to do with camping.



Tuesday, December 25, 2007

It is the time again to do up a new year resolution.

This time I am going to do up a realistically ambitious resolution for 2008.

I will make sure I achieve all the aims that I am going to have for the new year.



Sunday, December 23, 2007

Feeling very sad at the moment.

Tomorrow is 24 December. Christmas eve to the many. I can't join my friends in the celebrations because I got to work. I really want to spent the Christmas with many of my friends but I don't think I am able to do it. I really want to ask my friends out late night but I think that many of them are unable to do so. It is also not convenient for them to come over here to spent the Christmas night with me.

How I wish I have a girlfriend at this moment. Then I can at least have someone to spend the night with. But too bad I don't have any girlfriend. So it will just be a lonely Christmas for me. The two person I wish to spend the day with is both staying very far from me. Although one of them stay at the west, I don't think he is willing to come down and spend the day with me. I guess this special friend of my will surely have plans of his own and I do not want to disturb.

My special friend, I wonder if you are reading this but today's message have really spoke to me that I need to reconcile my friendship with you. The good old days which was so sweet has lost it's taste and I need to find the special sugar which can bring back the long lost goodness.

Soon it will be the end of the year and I really want to be with my friends. It has really been a long time since we went out together. Maybe we have all grown up and we have our own group of friends, but I am sure there is still a little of me in your mind. I don't know if you are willing but I will always avail myself.

I think I am getting too emo already. But I still miss the Christmas. I didn't thought that I will get so affected by it. If you are someone I miss, please ask me out?



Tuesday, December 18, 2007

It is really a small world...

A knows B

C knows D

A knows C

B knows D

Most importantly....

I know all A B C and D...

HAHAHAHA...

Okay.. I am getting mad here...



Sunday, December 16, 2007

Christmas is at our doorsteps once again. After 265 days, it is back again. The hours we spent to prepare for any event on the actual day and the time shopping for gifts. It is a hectic period for almost everyone, with all the Christmas parties lined up and gathering everywhere.

But I feel that Christmas has lost its true meaning. The day where our saviour Jesus Christ was born and his heavy burden that he carried on him. But everyone had already forgotten about him and substituted him with another character that is more popular than Jesus. I guess Santa Claus has already appeared in our mind. Don't worry, I am not here to preach. My point to make is that we have all forgotten the true meaning, even Christians alike.

This year, I am quite reluctant to celebrate Christmas. In fact, I am working on the eve of Christmas. So I guess I won't need to spent money on buying presents for people this year, because I won't be seeing them. Anyway, it is not about gift and all. I detest the idea of Christians exchanging gifts in church on this day as well. They can spent the time buying gifts but not the time inviting someone.

I am going to have a sad Christmas this year. Having to work even on the eve of Christmas is unsound. But I rather go for work then to go into church and see all the Christians eagerly exchanging gifts and talking about where to go after that. It is just so ridiculously insulting.

Anyway, it is coming to the end of the year. Another year have past and we are getting a year older. Time for a new set of realistic resolutions again. Things are no more what it used to be.

But all this being said, I would still like to spent this festive occassion with some close friends. I would like to end the year with the person I started the year with. I want spent the christmas with all those who impacted my life and a nice turkey(which I have no idea why turkey instead of chicken). Wishes wishes. Wonder when will they come true...



Thursday, December 13, 2007

I had this talk with an old friend recently and I can't help but wonder how can anyone be so tolerating? I am not as forgiving as he can and I can't fake ignorance at all. It happened with this person and lets call him A.

A had this group of good friends which many think that they are very close. But when A step into this new environment, he changed. Now it just seem to be much more closer to this new group of friends that I somethings wonder who is really his friend. He spend all of his time with this new group of people and just cheat his old group of friends. What anger me most is that this people still think he is a nice guy who is always there for them. Most importantly, he is a christian leader. Why do I know? Well, I am in-between this two groups of people that's why.

Which part of the bible teach him to behave like that? I am certain that is not from the bible and I am sure that is not how a christian should be. I don't know why A just can't tell the truth and tell either of the group the truth. Why hide the truth from those who still treat you as their close friend? What among this christian friends is so attractive that you sacrifice those whom you have known for so long? Don't you worry that you will loss their friendship? Or maybe that is what you really want?

I just can't take it lying down. Those whom you treat as close friend in this new group, I will hate every single one of them. My attitude will be foul and I will not change how I behave. One thing I can't tolerate is for someone to hurt my friends. Even if one of my friend hurt another, I will not take it lying down. There is nothing I don't know, there is only things I don't want to know. If it is not for some friends who ask me to close one eye and stand aside to watch how A suffer when the truth is uncovered, I will go straight to A and throw it right into his face.

If this is the teaching of the church, I don't want to be a part of it. I hate to know those new friends that A have. I will choose not to cross path with all those people. I will also not want to befriend any of them because I think that they are just naive people. When people say that A is a very nice person, I will just mock at their ignorance. That they don't really know A enough. That they will soon faced the sad truth of being cheated by A again. My condolences to all those who still think that A is a nice guy and a good friend.

兄弟结义各杀一个外人

从此，兄弟的命就是命

其他的，皆可杀！

这就是投名状。



Sunday, December 09, 2007

Was away at a class chalet this weekend. It is always nice to meet up with old friends and chat under the stars.

It was a nice experience this time as we did something very new. We washed the floor of the chalet. We played with the cakes and smash it almost everywhere. The whole floor was littered with the cream and cakes. We had no choice but to wash the whole floor or else we will not be able to sleep.

People came and leave like they do in our lives but the thing that last will be the fond memories that we hold. I remembered this saying the only thing that never changes is change. We all have matured and grow but we are still the same us. Our playful nature is still visible and our attitude never change. This time we all had a fun experience and enjoyed ourselves amidst all our exams and school work. I am glad that we have this opportunity to come together again.

I will post some photos of the past few days and some insights of this chalet. I almost forgot that it was Benny's ORD day as well. Now its time for you to start a new phase before any of us even dream of it. All the best my friend.



Friday, December 07, 2007

Got myself a really part time job. The timing for the job is not confirm. Anytime I am needed, I need to be there. The pay is not very promising but it is certainly something I want to be doing.

I am an assistant Badminton coach if you are wondering what I am doing. I help out with some coaching of all levels. Currently I am helping 1 coach but I will be liaising with more coaches. I am expecting more client when school term starts. But for now, it will do.

My current assignments is still very relaxing but next week onwards, I will be busy everyday. I am doing umpiring duty for Ashaway tournament. The pay for the event is not really very good, but I am hoping to make use of the opportunity to know more coaches so that I can have more assistant job. This is the first time I am doing official umpiring job and I am afraid I mess it up. I don't want to receive any complains. It is also a good chance to know more badminton lovers. Maybe to find a girlfriend who love badminton?(just kidding)

This will also be a platform for me to experience coaching and learn a thing or two about professional coaching. Then I will go and get my coaching licence and be a certified coach. Next time you see me, I will be a real coach and you need need address me as coach. Isn't that cool?

It is a tiring job. Unlike those who stay in the office or in air-conditioned environment, I actually need to sweat to earn my pay. To coax little kids and to teach them proper strokes. A little bit scary. When playing, everyone has their own style and stroke, but we need to teach the standard to the beginners. I almost forgot how to do the basics. I don't want my own coach Lin mu to throw face also. So I got to do my best.

Coach Edwin aka zihao signing off



Tuesday, December 04, 2007

手足

K:我要有信心

却飘得仿佛水母

我要看远景

却始终仿佛守株兔

天天有烦恼

怪世界太讲彩数

你会说有时大嗌很好

S:两个要上街

喝啤酒必须冰冻

两个去唱K

由得我借歌哭诉

想得到得不到

哪个有心知道

有人为我赶到

B:*"手足"只得两个字"

所以只有两个知

今晚很想见见面

想散心心照得你可以

难解释难休息

城市太多争霸战

各有各去应战天光冲刺

"手足"只得两个字

感觉点只有你会知

不必多讲半个字

一辈子只有跟你可以

谁失踪谁失忆

城市太少不会变

各有各去应战

天黑相见*

S:担起了太多

轻松却太少

方知道这就叫成年

一起去眼浅

一起去上链

方知道和谁极相似


(人越大就越想幼稚

就好似越闷越想数下手指

同事朋友都总会知

对住边个好似唔使变脸

好多时我都会知想点

好多野但系唔想人知

好彩仲有手足手足手足

两个字)





Sunday, December 02, 2007

Watched a lot of Taiwanese drama last few weeks. To me, almost all these series revolve around the same story line. But there is still a few that is outstanding.

Like this 18禁不禁, I think it is especially touching. The story line is so simple and close to our heart. The life of a student facing all the challenges in school and a maturing young adult facing problems of school. The most heartwarming thing is the friendship forged in the process. Through every challenges in life, there is always that few friends who stick closer than family.

It reminded me of the last day of school where we will probably see our friends for the last time. For a better future and one that each of us have that is different from another. Although many things came by, there is always a lesson to be learn and a better relation to be forged.

What is nice about the drama is that for every episode, there is a small sharing of experience which I think is the lesson for us to learn from that episode.

I guess what makes it so different from other drama is the close to heart story line. The familiar situations featured in the drama is something we faced in our school life. I would say it is an exclusive experience that no poly or ite students can experience. I am not saying it is superior, but the atmosphere that we have.

I envy all the students who can be in a school studying. Given a choice, I would want to go back in time to experience that lifestyle again. To treasure that moment and grasp every opportunity that is presented before us.