Saturday, May 30, 2009
Human. What are we actually? Sometimes I don't understand how we can be so self-centered. I am also guilty of it. When problem arises, we just try our means to escape any responsibilities. Sometimes I just hope to stay in Tekong. It is just so peaceful. Nobody there to disturb you. When we off our handphone, we are practically free of all the other people. No one can find you. We can go run to anywhere our feet can bring us and just sit down to meditate. We can find a place to ponder about life and escape from the fast pace society. I really hope to find such a place on our main land Singapore. Cycle there and just find a nice spot and just take a short break to watch the world move round without having to participate in it. Maybe even to have a close friend beside to chat about any thing possible. I don't understand why must we be in the world to experience all these pain, suffering, joy and even anticipation.I hope I can earn alot of money now and after I end this national service, I can go to some nice country to enjoy what the world can offer. To see this world in a different light and to gain better understanding of myself and this world.
zihao blogged at 5/30/2009 09:27:00 PM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
What is the meaning of life? What does it mean to live in this earth? Some might say for the riches of this world or maybe even the exciting things to do. It could also be because of the friends that is here with us. But is that the only cause of our existence?
Having to know Christ will provide a totally different reason for our living. No I am not promoting Christianity if you are thinking. It just struck me that I have being feeling quite empty since I entered army. I have been too busy to find time to go Church and I have been finding excuses to miss Sunday worship. I really miss the time in Church. No need to bother who is there and what to do. The most important thing is the spiritual nourishment we receive week after week.
I am not the hardcore type of Christian but I believe that what has been written in the bible is worth our time reading and practicing. What harm is there to learn good? What harm is there to practice the right way? Yes, entering heaven's gate might be the most important thing in our life, but we can't forget that there is still someone else out there that might need us. Even if it means for us to deviate in our path a little.
So many things that happen still can't satisfied the void that is in me. Not the excitement of new recruits nor the fun time doing shit with them. It still feels empty. What are we truly living for? That is the question I want to know. Being able to achieve so much in life but still not enough to satisfy the hunger. Some see the life I am living to be fun and look up to it. Being a camp instructor, BMTC instructor and even having so many qualifications. But it still is not enough. It is not about all this that matters. This are just the momentary pleasure that will fade away.
I am at the crossroad once again. Not knowing where to go, what to do. Am I too stubborn to open up my ears and heart to the voice above? Can anyone guide me what to do from here?
zihao blogged at 5/24/2009 01:15:00 PM
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Finally all the weekend duties have ended. I don't know when was the last time I had a normal book out. After this week I can finally enjoy all the normal timings. Hopefully not to be so emo in camp.I think its time to plan for some activities to improve myself. I have already ordered my bike, now it is only waiting for me to go down to collect. Next will be to enroll in some course. Power boat, abseiling level 2 and even kayaking. To be jack of all trade is not easy, but I will try to achieve that in the shortest time.Who wanna go eat some good food next weekend? Or maybe go dempsey hill to have ben and jerry? Just plan some activity for me to do.
zihao blogged at 5/17/2009 04:36:00 PM
Saturday, May 02, 2009
To start, I know I have been away for very long. 3 weeks to be exact. I feel like I have missed out on a lot of things. It is all due to some army thing that will always happen. But I don't think I want to touch much on it.
Anyway, have been really boring recently. Nothing much is happening, no excitement, no girls, no camp, no nothing. Sick of being in army. Really want to seek an escape. Away from the crowd and into a retreat. But I don't think it will happen. Now is all about army only. All the high key event back to back is driving me crazy.
Going back later for field camp preparation. I also don't know what is there to prepare. I have nothing special to do at all. It is really annoying to book in so early to do nothing. In fact booking in on a Saturday is stupid. Who in the right mind would plan such a thing? Maybe is those with high ranks who forget about other people's inconvenience.
Back to what I did for this short weekend break. Yesterday went over to Dempsey hill to chill out and listen to some live band. Elusion featuring Melissa. It is an awesome group, nothing much I can say. One thing bad is that it is not really accessible by foot. So it will be best with a transport. But that is not a problem. The band is going to perform over at a new chill out place just at the premise of the old specialise centre. I am sure going to bring some friends over to watch.
Another thing is that I am going to buy a new bicycle. You will think it is crazy to spend 1K on a bike. I am thinking the same too. But I am still trying to find better deals. Giant, GT, Swiss, etc. Not sure which brand to get.
I really miss good food. Don't know when I can go and eat something nice and chill out at a relaxing place. A nice verse I heard from someone; friends come and go, but family members will stay forever. How true it is. I really how to have friends as close as family.
zihao blogged at 5/02/2009 12:49:00 PM
