Monday, July 24, 2006

Evangel is one church where the youth can be very active. Monthly leaders prayer on Tuesday, G12/cell group on Wednesday, Hearts on fire on Friday, Heart.sports/outreach on Saturday and Sunday service. Most of the time will be in church. Its good as we can be close to God and be greatly expose to His words and be a better Christian. But it is just taking up so much time that we can sometimes lose track and fall back on other things such as studies and friends that is not from church.

Sometimes I ask myself am I in the right church. I got so many things that I want to do and to enjoy life but my time is filled with church. No doubt I do learn alot in church and have made many friends. But Christian are not all holy. Friends from other church do let me envy them sometimes. They have such close friendship and they are from the same school. The best part is that they can just share anything that they want and there is so many things about everyday life to chat about. "hey, Mr so-and-so made such a funny speech today and its so funny." "yah, the best part is the way he look."

But all that keeps me in Evangel is God. Unless he give me the "go" I will still stay in Evangel. If theres one thing I learn in church that is not to go against God. Now even more is the ministry I am in. I feel that the ministry demands more spiritual maturity compare to other ministry. Lachman always ask us how are we doing spiritually and how are we doing.

As time advance, everything changes. I remember when I first went to Evangel the people that I met and now, they are no where in sight. The cliques that I see is also not the same anymore. Simply put it that things are not the same. The joy of going to church feels different now. My personal friends have also changed alot. But all I hope for is the things of the past. People now all seems to have a hidden motive behind them.