Sunday, July 16, 2006

Maybe it is just to me but midnight always seems to be the darkest hour of my days. Many things and memories comes to me during that very hour. In the bible, Acts 16:25 also mention that midnight is the darkest hour of Paul and Silas. Maybe to many midnight is just another hour and nothing more but in fact at that very hour many things happen.
Midnight symbolize the beginning of a new day, a new hope. It can also symbolize the start of another tedious day. Midnight can also means time to party and enjoy life. To some it can mark the beginning or ending of working life. Midnight can have different meaning and understand for different people and no matter what, it will pass and it will come back again to haunt us.
To me, I would want to avoid midnight at all cost. During the day, whatever happens be it happy or sad it will end with the midnight drawing near. I can still remember a few occasions where I am having a lot of fun and just about to get high and to start enjoying the night but sadly with the coming of midnight, it marks the ending of all the joy. Many a times in my life I am cut off from joy by the call of midnight bell. Even when I think that I am enjoying some good times with a ex-close friend chatting and enjoying a day out, I am being murdered by the call of midnight. What ever good it once was is now ended with the coming of the midnight.
frankly speaking, I do not really like midnights and I also hope that I can stop time from moving and passing whenever I want. But sometimes it is good that midnight comes. Sometimes when we are facing a problem, we hope that time can pass by quickly so that we need not face that problem. Like when we are short of cash for the day and we need to go out and do many things, we just hope that the day can end quickly so we need not worry about it. Or when we have tons of work in the office and we just hope that Midnight can come and we can go back and rest.
With all this said, midnight can be a blessing and it can also be a curse. I used to hope that time can pass slowly so that I can enjoy all the good times but now, I just hope that midnight can come one after another without waiting for that 24 hours. I do not want to feel the miseries and all the thinking all the memories is causing a lot of sadness.