Sunday, October 29, 2006

Learned the way to a happy ending in our life. Many a times we start off well but some where down the alley we got lost and got astray. We may start things off well but we might not end the way we want it.

First thing to take note of is not to be proud. More than often we get entangled in our own achievements that we become too into it. Like when someone did well for a test or exam and he/she starts to be too over it and starts to showoff. In a church when someone gets famous through his talent in many church activities, he gets proud and starts to amplify it. Although he spend time at the beginning and got blessed him but him never stay humble and grow proud in it. Slowly it will become a curse.

Secondly is when someone did you injustice and do not try to take revenge. Like in a friendship, your friend betrayed you and you get bitter and try to take things into your own hand. You seek revenge in every way and try to be your own judge. Even though it started out alright and you enjoy the company of each other but along the way he betrayed you and you got angry and wanted to take revenge. I remember this saying about an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth and there will be many tooth-less out there. Isn't it more miserable to hate than to love?

Thirdly is to be jealous. Like when your friend and you started out the same but along the way, he got more fame and fortune. He started to outshine you and you get jealous of what he have. It may even be in the form of materialism. We get jealous of what people have or what we don't have that we dream about it day and night. The desire, the jealousy just occupied our entire life. We slowly forget what we start out as and what is our ultimate goals in life.

I am guilty of all this. I get jealous, proud and want revenge. I hunger so much and I desire so much. I am one who bear grudges and I pray that I will be lifted of this curse. I want to learn to forgive and forget. I just hope that ******* and I will reconcile the relationship we used to have. I miss you very much.

Upon writing so many entry, I wonder who really read all this. I really hope that all who reads upon this entry will leave a name, even if I don't know you. It will give me the encouragement to continue writing.