Friday, September 08, 2006

I prayed a lot during today's youth gathering. Watched this movie "second chance" and it really spoke to me. It told me many things and teaches me how I should face some problems. I like the part where this guy wash the feet of another just to seek forgiveness. This is just like when Jesus washed the feet of his disciples.

Pastor then said that we should not work base on our emotions. We should do things with the faith in God. When we base our work on god, whatever we do we will have success.

This is an area I need to work very hard on. I am a slave to my own emotions. Unless I have no feelings at all or else I will be controlled by my emotions. I will obey my emotions and do things before thinking if I should do it. I always get hurt by it and I have never recover from it since. I don't know why but I always get hurt when I do things base on my emotions. I got hurt deeper and deeper and always get hurt by the ones I trust the most.

Until now I am still suffering from a set back which my emotions have caused. I am trying very hard to get out of it but it never last. Now is the time I need God most. More than anything in the world.