Tuesday, January 30, 2007

I felt so relieved after chatting with Jennifer. It is like after so long she is still the one who really understand how I feel. I guess this is why they are the adults.

It really is good that I can find someone to talk to and tell her of my problems. How I feel about things and all. The people and the behaviour. Even to discuss some issues with her. She is such a good encouragement to me. I really feel so much better after talking to her. But I guess I will return to who I was until I have made the decision.

I don't know why but Hope Church Singapore just keep appearing in my mind. Is it God's will? I don't know. All the stress from school and studies just keep pressing me to the corner. I do not know what to do and who to turn to. Man will surely be a disappointment and I am too weary to seek God.

With each passing days, the desire to step down from my ministry tend to grow stronger. The desire to get away from youth service and more into adult service tend to grow stronger. Even more for the desire to go over to Hope Church Singapore where I have a lot of friends there. It seem more homely there than EFC for me. The friends here seems further away and the friends there seems closer to me.