Friday, April 27, 2007

Had friendly today with Holy innocent secondary. Well it was I who contacted Glenn to ask if he want to have friendly with us. It was nice to have opponents to test out our strength.

Some hiccups here and there but it was solved. Now the problem is on me. It becomes a big thing when my back is the main concern of the PE department. I had an injury on my back and they pronounced me to be unfit for PE. But because I am doing badminton, they do not believe me. I just hope that every one just let me be. It is not as if I will put the blame on others.

Anyway, had fun today. Love meeting new opponents. Thanks Glenn for this friendly. I really enjoyed myself even though my back ache during the game. Really need to take care of myself more. Don't want to get injured before the competition. It is the last year and I hope everything goes well. Praying that God will help me through all this. Making everything work out in the end.

One thing that bothers me is that people are expecting too much of me. Luke called and ask me the reason for not going church. I really wish to. But I can't just leave because I want to go to church. It is not just about me alone. In fact there is people who feels that I should be there, therefore I feel more motivated to stay. Unlike being in church where I sometimes have this feeling that I do not know anyone there. I know is my faithlessness but I just can't help it. I want to give my best to God but I just can't find the motivation.

Sometimes I just feel that worldly friends care more about me. They make it an effort to constantly ask me out even though I do not really go most of the time. They care to know how I am doing and share their problems with me. I just feel so much more relaxing being with them. At least they keep me company when I needed someone most.

Enough of the emo-ness. Got to prepare to sleep. Tomorrow still got to go to school early in the morning for lesson. After that is CCA training. I really hope to take a break from all this and really enjoy a nice meal out with friends that I missed.