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Lee Zi Hao
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Badminton is my life
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    sentimental

    Sunday, May 27, 2007

    I thought I am on the road to recovery, but I guess I am not. With every care and concern I received, I get even more heartache.

    Looking through some friendster profile, I realised some facts. I started to get emotional again and this time it is not what I want. I tried to avoid but the more I tried, the closer it gets.

    Guess the question now is still the same as it was. To stay or to go? Call me weak or whatever but I just can't face this problem myself. It is getting into me and affecting my studies. Although Sophie and Sharon kept me accompanied this week but I clearly know that they can't be there always.

    This is a great decision to make. I don't know if I will make the right one. God, please teach me what to do. I have already draw out from the limelight. From ministry, from participation and from anything that needs my commitment. Taking a break off all this things to really think through. The higher you are, the greater the fall is.

    Realise one thing contradicting. I know quite a lot of people in church, but I am close to none. It is easy to say that we must look unto God and not man. But for a teenager, how can we not rely on friends? Is it so difficult to find close confide? I am just bad at expressing myself and it takes a long time for me to convey my thoughts. When the world continues to turn, I am still stuck at this very spot. Waiting for someone to hold my hand and to move on.

    Sometimes it is just so delusional to what I should do. I am too weak to force my way through the thunderstorm to get to the calm horizon but I don't want to be at the receiving end waiting for what is to come.

    I don't know why I am always bounded by friendships. I can't get out of it. But sometimes I don't want to get out of it. Is it because we have too little time spend that you misunderstood me? Or is it that our path should never cross?

    Really trying to put all these aside now. I want to get on with life. Or maybe this is part of life?


    zihao blogged at 5/27/2007 03:28:00 PM


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