Monday, May 14, 2007

In a roller coaster ride.

Thanks to sophie and sharon for cheering me up. Don't know what will I do without you two. But continue to guess who is this special someone. She is someone obvious.

There is still one more person that is holding me back on my decision. He is the one who is with me when I first step in church. For those who know me since I first step into church, you will know who he is. He is the first real friend I consider I have.

I wanted a long break. It is a single thought that give birth to many avenues.

I can't believe my tears fall because of such an incident. Guess this is 爱的深，伤的更深.

I do not know what to do. Facing so many struggle before me and yet have to stand strong. My friends whom I can seek are all in NS. Times like this that I desire to get in asap.

How I wish she was mine now. At least I know she can cheer me up.

Just for the record, I am not doing all this because of the attention. Have I not have enough? In my work and all that I have done. Am I not popular enough? To be in the limelight is the last thing I want. I prefer people not know me at all.

Why is it so difficult to find someone who will understand you and stand behind you? I can say that not many people know what I am going through. In church I guess there is only 1. Other people, I guess they are not aware at all. I don't mind sharing but I don't want the pity.

Giving up those things that brings sorrow...