Thursday, June 28, 2007

I am not suppose to be blogging now because I still have papers until next Wednesday. But I need to distress a little by writing out my feelings now since I don't feel like talking to anyone about it. The school counselor should be my next stop after this block test season. There is just so many things that causes my stressfulness.

I am getting more stress after each paper and more depress after seeing the questions on the papers. I was so under prepared for all my papers. Now I still got all the holiday homework waiting to be completed. I am preparing for a lot of nagging after this week. But I still need to restrain myself from walking out of the classroom or just give attitude to the teachers.

Currently I am procrastinating not to study for my human geography paper. All the studying during the holidays wasn't much help at all. Come to think of it, I did not know what I was studying for all this while. Even for my math I just can't seem to remember the formulas. Guess I was too distracted during my studies. I hate to study and knowing that there is still homework to be done just turn me off.

Right now I just want to eat a good buffet. Yearn for it for a long time but no chance to go and no one to go with. Be it international, mexican, japanese or even chinese, I am game for it. Eating just helps me to distress, especially with good friends around.

More stress are coming up soon. I can just smell it from afar. I need a sword to cut my throat. Wonder how long I can take it. But the thing is that I guess this super stressness is exclusive to YJC. No other schools will face such intense stress. Its time to find ways to help me look at things on a happier note and be cheerful, I hope.