Tuesday, August 21, 2007

This 2 days are quite boring for me. No papers and no mood to study for the next paper to come. At home sleeping most of the time and doing nothing productive. Wanted to go out but my body just doesn't want to.

Is it so coming to plan for events after A levels? Everyone is saying after As we will do this and that. But it is still a long way until the As. Is there no time for relaxation? Or maybe we can squeeze out 1 or 2 hours just to go out and have a good meal?

Last Friday heard something from a Pastor that made me quite glad. He said that he hasn't seen me for some time. But the fact is I did went to Church. I don't feel the least bit of sadness, in fact I feel quite delighted. I have successfully blend into the background, escaping the spotlight. Being at a place that is best for me to be at. Just sitting there and be a spectator with no demand from me. The stress of being on stage and having so much responsibility is a thing of the past. I feel so free now.

I am never a up-front person. I rather do things behind the stage. Even if one day I am not in the Church anymore, no one will notice and there will not be much of a gossiping. I am rather enjoying the position where I am in. Not participating in anything and having the free time I want. Less commitment and more freedom. I am now contemplating on whether I should sign up for the youth camp in December. If I do, I have to find roommates and less time to enjoy before I go for NS.

Looking for people to go out with. But there is just so little time available. Times when I am free, majority of my friends are not. When they are free, I am not. How sad is it? Maybe Friday nights and Saturdays? I should be free on both days. I have so many places I want to go and a lot of places to eat at.

But for now, it is still on my bed thinking of what to do before someone calls me up and ask me out. Not for stupid things I hope. I still want to retain my image. The cool me.

Oh, I might be taking up a new interest. Maybe a musical instrument like guitar? Or maybe roller-blading? Or just maybe going for kayaking? Or should I use my Wednesday and Friday evenings for Badminton training with my coach? Decision, decision yet again. Lets just see which opportunity cost is lower.

Ask me out for good food soon my friends? Benny, when will you be free for a meal out?