Saturday, December 24, 2005

Friends. What are they actually? Friends only when they are not in competition? But when competition arises they become enemies? Why do you want to get jealous of your friends? Is it because you think you are not good enough and you know that your friend is truly better than you in everyway and that you cannot outstand him? That you know that when you two are competing you will surely lose? Well let me tell you this, if this is how you think you are a pain in the ass. You can die and perish in hell for all I care. Friendship has a higher meaning to what brainless people can think of. Friendship is higher than any love relation. If there is anything that can last that will be friendship. But people nowadays just abuse it and take it for granted.
If you like to read wu xia xiao shuo, you will truly know what is friendship. If your brother likes your girl, you will offer the girl to your friend and the only person to trust is your friend. The only person to die for is also for friends. But all is different now. What is the true meaning of friendship now? Is it that we are friends as long as you don’t fight with me for the same thing? If that is the case then I would say that friendship is truly worthless. I hope to find a genuine friendship that goes beyond that. I am always a man of my words, if I say A I will not do B. If you are truly a friend then you should know this well. Anyway, I am never threatened by any words so if it is a fight you want then it is a fight you will get. Shouldn’t friends trust friends? I trust meng hui for everything and even if I don’t believe I will trust him. I give him the priority in everything. If I have to rate the friendship, his will go off the chart. That is what friends should be like. Even if we fall in love with the same girl and if he likes, I will step back. Love relation should not hinder friendship. If it does, then this will not be true friendship already.
You shouldn’t see what you can reap out of any friendship. Be it monetary or other areas like to get to another girl or even to get to know somebody. This is not call friendship but a deal. Don’t commit into any friendship if you know you can’t give it your best. For example I have a good friendship with meng hui and that not because I want to get any benefit from it but that I expected true friendship between us. That should be the only reason. I did things for him that is between us and that not because of any other reasons but simply that I value him as a good friend. I am not after his money nor am I trying to get to someone close to him. Many a time people make friends because of the wrong reason. Who now truly sees friends as a close companion?
To me, I prefer my friends to be competitive so that I can grow stronger with him/her together. It is no point being the strongest with no friends and the world will be a lonely place. In ancient time, if a friend dies, one will not seek to live in this world. That is the true spirit of friendship. But overly competitive is also not good. It will demoralize your friends as well and make them feel inferior. If any one is not happy with my friend, tell me, I can serve all ties with you. Don’t mess with my friends or I will get nasty with you. To live 18 years of this life, I have learned many things. One of which is that things bestow upon you may not be things that you wish for, they are just bonus. I can tell you this; I can forego anything that is not want I truly wanted. If I want to achieve something, I will surely do what is in my means to get things done; even in friendship this is true.
I do not envy a huge network of friends but I envy those who have really close friends. Not those that spur you on the bad things but those that give you encouragement and tell your wrong doing when they sees one.
Some people don’t like my attitude but all I can say is that I am not living for people. I live for a higher cost and I will only change for my close friends but not to the public. I don’t care of what people see me as just as long as my friends know who I really am.